‘The doors are
locked; you can love me here again if that’s what you mean.’ He offered and she
chuckled. ‘Rise so I can lay under you.’
‘I ate
normally at breakfast, do you really think?...’
‘I’m sure!’
Proud of his secret ability to plan their lives, he smiled when she scooted to
the side and her negligée opened revealing her milky skin and engorged nipples.
He half lay beside her and leaned forward to place a small kiss on each. ‘This
one is better be a boy or we’ll have to call her Catherine!’ Darcy grinned enchanted by the idea of an heir; Elizabeth
smiled although her eyes were troubled. ‘Maybe a boy will allow you a more
agreeable confinement.’
For a
moment she thought her stomach was already rebelling against the child inside
her. ‘According to you, there’ll be another two girls before a boy comes.’ She
kissed his ear hiding her face in his neck.
‘Two years
since Eliza, it’s about time we have another babe in the house.’
‘After
their stroll in the park with the nannies; our daughters will need a long nap.
Georgiana is at cousin Margaret’s for the modiste’s visit. Are you finished
with your business?’
He nodded
combing a loose lock of hair behind her ear. ‘You didn’t want a new dress?’
She shook
her head and wrinkled her nose as the wreath balanced awkwardly over her left
eye. ‘I have new ones for the next balls. Margaret is too… bossy when it comes
to fashion. She is now intent on peacock feathers, I want far from her.’ He chuckled.
‘Another ball in a few hours and we’re officially in the middle of Georgiana’s
third shopping season. Half is done, only half more to come.’
‘I hope
this will be our last.’ He groaned for her amusement and she kissed his
eyelids.
‘Your aunt
has a Duke and a future Earl at prise de
fer.’
‘I suspect
that even if she had a Prince you’d still block his coming to me and it would
still cause drama between you and aunt Daphne.’
‘I still
hope for a love match, she insists on a fine arranged marriage.’ Elizabeth
huffed.
He held her
face to look directly into her eyes. ‘Thank you for conducting everything with
so much care. For managing with my aunt what it was best for Georgiana after
that problem at Ramsgate.’
‘I accept
your gratitude.’ She smiled with a twinkle in her eyes. ‘By conducting you mean keeping my family
very far from most of the events, is it not?’ She smiled sideways, he pressed
his lips. ‘At least Aunt Eliza has made peace with you… and you seem to be fond
of Uncle Gardiner again.’
‘I am.
Just…’ He trailed off. ‘Never mind.’
Elizabeth
bit her lip and silently stared at his shirt for a moment. ‘My love?’
‘Mmm?’
‘I don’t
want to upset you but I hate secrets.’ Her delicate fingers combed his chest’s hair
and something in her voice made his heart instantly change from the comfortable
warm rhythm of love to uneasiness. ‘I
got a letter today.’
‘Yes?’
‘A letter
from the New World.’ She twisted and took it from under her, Darcy waited. ‘My
solicitor is making a fine life there and-‘
‘You
solicitor?’ His face and voice hardened. ‘You keep an attorney?’ She nodded,
fine eyes slightly widened. 'After I told you to quit relations with those
bastards who consider you a fool?’
Elizabeth
huffed. ‘It certainly is not how he sees me!’ He closed his eyes to contain his
annoyance. ‘Don’t distract me; I have to tell you something important,
Fitzwilliam.’ She waited until he looked at her again. ‘There was a big fever,
it got out of hand.’
Darcy
frowned considering why that would be important for them and maybe because he
was slightly upset for having his plans for an erotic afternoon frustrated, he
had trouble understanding. Soon his beautiful wife would change and he wanted
to appreciate her figure and bed before their child growing in her womb took
possession of her. Then it hit him, he swallowed with difficulty afraid his
inferno was about to erupt again disturbing his perfect life and frowned
deeply.
‘The mother
survived the illness.’ She said measuring his reaction carefully; he was intent
on her eyes trying to do the same. ‘But not the children, I’m very sorry.’
Elizabeth closed her eyes and her shoulders sagged. ‘Grieved.’ He nodded. ‘I
feel guilty.’
‘Why?’ He
asked horrified.
‘If not for
me, you would never have sent them away and-’
‘I didn’t.’
He held her by the arms. ‘I gave them means to live far from us, wherever they
chose. Merely that.’
She bit her
lip, eyes troubled. ‘What shall we do?’
‘Nothing.’
‘The other
one-’
‘Nothing.
It’s taken care of, my love.’
Tense
silence engulfed them and even though each dwelled on a distinct perspective of
the situation, in essence their hearts relapsed. It was the same pain deemed
long forgotten returning.
‘May I ask why
do you keep an attorney, Elizabeth?’ He asked at last, eyes in slits, already en garde for a fight.
She
shrugged. ‘It seemed practical to have the assistance of a gentleman who knew
the law and-‘
‘I demand
you quit any business you have with that bastard or any other solicitor.’
‘Fitzwilliam!’
She gasped for he never used that tone of voice with her.
‘You once
minced my heart with your jealousy and insecurities-’ He accused and she stood
hugging her gown around her chest, then adjusted the wreath on top of her
loosely braided hair as if physically holding their love in place. ‘You cannot
deny that was what you did.’
‘I can and
I do, sir.’ Elizabeth considered to be happily married, assured of her stance
in life, proud of the family she had been creating beside the man she had had three
chances to accept; but she hadn’t changed enough to be intimidated easily.
‘Four and a half years ago I took a blow much fiercer than I could handle.’
‘You cannot
bring those misinterpretations to light again, Elizabeth.’
‘Misinterpretations,
sir?’ She defied him.
Darcy loved
his wife with all his heart, with his own life, more even than he loved his
sister and those two angels Heaven had sent for him to baptize as Daphne and
Eliza Darcy. But, oh, how his lady had the power to control his emotions like
the sea played with boats, throwing him from a moment of paradise-like peace to
the most violent storm in a matter of seconds. ‘Listen, madam-’ He also rose to
impose the power of his height and strong voice over her. Barefoot and half
naked she needed to toss her head back to look at his face, those fine eyes
glowing with courage and… love – of course he realized how much she loved him. ‘Listen
to me, my love.’ He tried again controlling his voice and emotions. ‘It is in
the past, those women, those children, everything was buried long ago. It pains
me to discover almost five years past you still plan to leave me.’ Her eyes
widened. ‘I can’t think another reason for you to keep an attorney.’
‘For…’
Surprised, she blinked. ‘Merely because…’
‘You
expected I would break my promise and resume the habit of paying visits.’ He
felt all the weight of the world in his heart. ‘All along you have been
suspicious.’ She bit her lip, he wanted to shake her and utter a guttural
scream but ran a hand on his hair because she was with child again and with it the
fear of losing her returned with monumental force to his chest.
‘I never again
considered leaving you.’ She said in an uncertain low voice that robbed her of any
conviction. ‘I trust you.’
‘Do you?’
‘Completely.’
‘Why,
then?’
She shook
her head. ‘It seemed appropriate. I… well, I…’ Elizabeth blinked nervously. ‘You
are a landed gentleman of consequence and I simply a gentleman’s daughter; your
family never hid how they considered me below you.’ She walked to the tall
planters and fingered the trees with disinterest. ‘My papa is never around to
aid me, after those horrible months my uncle was estranged from us for a while,
I felt vulnerable.’
‘You
considered me a menace. Is that it?’
‘No!’ His
violent reaction fueled her courage and she squared her shoulder before turning
back to him. ‘And not only that, you must know, sir.’ She pressed her eyes and
he rose to the challenge. ‘Being your wife has responsibilities. Those children
came from you; it is my duty to see to their wellbeing. I sent money-’
‘What?’ He
roared.
She shuddered
and her head spun, she had to press her eyes close to regain her balance. Yes,
he was right, she was with child again. ‘I tried to forget the whole affair but
after Daphne was born and I saw you taking her up a horse when she was but a
babe I realized those other children…’ She groaned with the effort of
controlling her body.
He walked
towards her, bent by the waist and kissed her still thin stomach. ‘My love,
let’s not dwell on unnecessary problems when you need to worry about this child
here.’
‘How can
you be sure I’m with child before me?’
‘Your
cheeks.’ He ran his hooked finger on her face. ‘They are constantly rosy when
you’re carrying.’ He gently kissed her nose and hugged her close to his chest
feeling his whole body tense. ‘Elizabeth, it is now time for you to put my
heart in peace. I need to ask again why would you nurture plans to leave me.’
She opened
her eyes with care to evaluate her balance. ‘You need not, husband. It never
crossed my thoughts again, especially after I felt our first daughter stir
inside me.’
‘Convince
me, my lady.’ He begged, his lips against her forehead. ‘Once you demanded I
convince you of my fidelity, now you convince me of yours.’ She blinked looking
up at him. ‘Cut all relations with any attorney or solicitor; abdicate the
notion that you are vulnerable with me, Mrs. Darcy.’
‘It had
been long since there was any correspondence from the New World, sir, it was
merely-‘
‘Severe all
business. I demand.’
She nodded
with a deep sigh.
‘I’ll pen a
nope, you add one of yours and my solicitor will take care of the rest.’ He
returned to the chaise and once seated, brought her to his lap again. ‘I’ll ask
him for a meeting so he can care for anything you might think necessary to calm
your heart, he’ll tend to you.’
‘Thank
you.’ She smiled sadly. ‘And he certainly will discuss with you before or after
he answers to my needs.’
He locked
her in his stare. ‘Can’t you trust me completely?’
Vanquished,
she forced a ghost of a smile. ‘I do.’
In his
torment, he only considered one option: solve the matter with haste for there
was no chance his heart could take that much suffering again. ‘I want to
believe you.’
‘I’ll prove
it to you.’ She leaned forward and touched her lips to his fleetingly.
A delicate
feather like caress such as that did nothing to calm him; it only made him more
insecure. In a whim, he held her neck with both hands and deepened the kiss to
rob her soul. ‘Kiss me again.’ He demanded and still a little breathless, she
complied. When he released her, her face was flushed and there was a lazy smile
on her swollen lips. ‘I love how my heirs render your cheeks rosy.’ He
whispered caressing her with a hooked finger once more.
‘It’s the
sun, sir. I’m here in this shaded balcony enjoying the warmth of the sun since
you went downstairs to attend to your business…’
Darcy had
faith in his calculations; planned their life carefully and was intent on her
body’s functioning. ‘I’m positive you are with child. Your nipples get fatty
and rosier.’ He caressed her left nipple with the same hooked finger. ‘And
here…’ He lowered more to place a kiss on her inner thigh, so close to her delicates that his nose touched the curls
and she trembled. ‘The perfume is slightly different.’ He sniffed again. ‘Stronger
somehow.‘
‘Fitzwilliam,
this is – Oh!’ His caress on her breast changed from a fleeting touch to a full
claw and she arched her back. ‘It’s indecent for a husband to say those things-’
He shut her with his mouth.
‘Indecent,
yes. You wanted everything.’ He moved so she laid over him on the stuffed
chaise she had been napping on and off for the best part of the morning. ‘This
is all of me.’
‘Only I
know how much of a cad you are.’
‘Only you
can give me everything in return, that’s what I need.’
She raised
his shirt and expertly opened his breeches’ flap. ‘Only me.’ He nodded sighing
as she guided his member inside her with practice. ‘Move, cad.’ She whispered
in a sassy smile. ‘Treat your wife with all the impropriety you can- oh!’ She
gasped as he gave her what she asked.
‘Exactly
the lady I deserve…’
Wings – Darcy house
‘You took
too long to return, Mrs. Darcy has already asked twice.’ Ashton complained
angrily. ‘Look at you, little darling. Rosy cheeks…’ The young girl giggled.
‘And this hair…’
Little
Daphne Elizabeth Darcy frowned and ducked to escape her mama’s maid who was
always tugging on her hair to fill it with pins that itched her scalp.
‘Good luck,
Ashton!’ Susanna, the nanny, chuckled. ‘Mrs. Darcy has to call her husband to
post guard in the nursery so I can comb these curls.’
‘And what
about you, Miss?’ Ashton pinched the toddler’s chubby cheeks and Eliza Jane
Darcy started a torrent of jumbled words explaining about a fish she saw in the
Serpentine. ‘Good Lord, that big?’ The girl’s curls bounced as she nodded
vigorously. ‘Go bathe and have tea, my dear. Then hurry to tell your mama
before she has to get ready for tonight.
‘Any news
of Evans, Ashton?’
‘Sorry,
Susanna.’ Rodgers answered from the door as he entered the hall. ‘He is still
away dealing with Mr. Darcy’s secret task.’
Susanna
sighed. It was too much to hope anyway that he would arrive without notice in
the middle of the season. Before she could waste any more of her time and tears
on the absent secretary or the spite of her former lover, the children’s
preceptor arrived and there would be hell to pay for letting the two Darcy
angels run free at the park as their mama had ordered.
By the end
of the season, as everyone was already tired of preparing gowns and head pieces
and bonnets and trousers the master was adamant of in sympathy with his cousin
but unfortunately needed careful ironings, it was with great joy that they started
to prepare the return to Pemberley.
There, not
only Ashton had her own chambers she didn’t have to share with the severe
preceptor, she could find distance from Susanna and her drama. Why would it be
interesting to anyone where the thin man had been sent by the master or why she
had refused the valet who got her the job?
What did
matter to Ashton was how happy her mistress was when the silly man returned to
London after months in a secret mission for the master. That same day, after
the last grand ball of the season, while Elizabeth grinned telling Ashton about
the several sets Miss Georgiana danced with the same future Earl for whom she
had a splitting smile, Mr. Darcy entered his wife’s chambers to presented her
with a detailed map of warehouses and milliners’ shops in Venice. She gasped
and gasped as he explained the ones marked with stars were available for lease,
the ones with a star and a red heart had ‘secret parlors for unnamables such as
women’s delicacies, fur negligées,
masks and ladylike liqueurs’. The mistress’ fine eyes widened and glowed as she
perused the sketches beautifully handmade, the master’s pressed smile and
infatuated gaze never left her.
Although
Ashton heard many conversations over the years, she didn’t understand what the
master meant by: ‘My lady, I now fulfill my last promise. It is time you reciprocate.’
Or why he was so moved with her answer but, when the mistress said ‘Complete
trust needs balance, Fitzwilliam.’ he sent the maid away with orders to return
only the next morning.
As for the
map, it took Mrs. Darcy a long time to confirm its accuracy. The lady had just
felt the first stirrings, her bump was then almost impossible to conceal and
from that to the breeding, one could count at least four months.
---
The laurel
wreath did confirm there was another Darcy child on the way. When, all those years before, his wife had
first told him she had left her courses in Scotland, he had trouble finding
laurel but of course she would need it beautifully entwined to adorn her pretty
hair: it was either a ‘Daphne’ or an ‘Apollo’ coming for without his Aunt
Matlock’s aid, there would be no such wondrous joy. By the birth of his second
daughter, there was a laurel tree growing in the garden he saw from his den’s
window.
Darcy was gladly
proved wrong in his predictions for their family with the birth of a boy
instead of his third girl. He couldn’t be named Apollo after all for ‘Apollo Darcy’
was a name too unusual to be had without the parents having to explain a good
deal of their indecent intimacy and
meddling of dear aunts. Nor ‘Napoleon Darcy’ as his eldest sister couldn’t
receive ‘Josephine’ as their uncle-cousin thought fitting. He was named Bennett
Richard Darcy as was expected.
Time slowly
healed most wounds, including Colonel Fitzwilliam’s leg (perpetually protected
by stockings, even when visiting expensive boudoirs), Elizabeth’s bruised heart
and Darcy’s fear of losing his beloved wife - be it by her own design or by the
birth of his heirs. Although her mother assured him ‘every lady from my family
can beget several children without trouble’, he saw how much she suffered with
each confinement and at the birth of a healthy male heir he declared the job
done.
Unfortunately,
time did not care to move with enough haste.
Elizabeth had
to wait for the promised trip to Italy to see how her daydream from tormented
days would look like in real life. Although warmed to know his wife felt
pleased with him for keeping his promises, her enthusiasm during their sojourn
in Venice killed Darcy.
Behind his
mask of aloofness he watched her happily chat with owners or patronesses afraid
she would decide this was the life that indeed brought her pleasure. He had
intended on showing her how hard a life as a shopkeeper was but incapable of
waiting her enthusiasm ebb away or her heart request nearness to her children,
Darcy despaired.
When
Elizabeth realized Darcy spent hours intent on the patronesses moving around the
shops instead of evaluating the business possibilities with her, she felt Earth
open under her feet. Their eyes met and held for the space it took their hearts
to move in different directions again, her fine eyes misted with bitter tears
of betrayal, his with the pain of misunderstanding.
‘We shall
leave for Paris on the morrow.’ He announced over dinner that same night breaking
their silent torment.
She frowned.
‘A week prior to what was arranged, sir?’
‘Order
Ashton to prepare your trunks.’
Hearts
bleeding, that night neither of them slept. He returned to their chambers several
hours after she retired and found her on her side almost at the edge of the bed.
He didn’t see but her eyes were wide opened, intent on the wondrous spectacle
the first sunrays played on the canal outside the window of the Venetian
apartment they occupied.
Time
actually had funny ways of repeating itself and once again they were caught in
a long, saddened and hastened trip aboard a luxurious coach – first from Scot
to London, now from Venice to Paris. But there were mistakes one couldn’t
commit twice.
‘You are
not leaving me ever again.’ He muttered as soon as the carriage put distance
between them and Venice, a place he had grown to detest.
‘Me?’
Surprised out of her silent sadness, she turned her eyes from the window and
winced as the carriage bounced.
‘I saw the
idea of living far from me cross your mind while we visited the shops.’
‘I am all
astonishment, sir, to know that such an idea occurred to you.’ Her eyes
sparkled. ‘Or any idea related to me. Didn’t you spend time ogling the women we
met on our tours?’
‘Ogling
women?’ He repeated offended.
‘Yes, cad!’
‘You still
doubt my fidelity?’
She
shrugged. ‘You doubt mine.’ She snorted and returned her eyes to the window.
‘Prove me wrong, Fitzwilliam.’ She defied.
‘You,
madam, you should convince my heart you are mine and will never want anything
over me.’ He spat seating on the edge of his seat and inching his body closer
to her.
Feeling
trapped and challenged, she pressed her eyes into slits to look at him. ‘You
were ogling other women.’
He did the
same. ‘You consider life here is more exciting than at Pemberley.’
‘I can keep
you blindfolded, eternally.’
He opened
his eyes to retort with a cruel menace but her sparkling eyes were a perpetual
trigger for his lust. He could threaten to chain her to his bed or to forbid
even her long walks. But he could also change his meticulous plans allowing a grand denouement… That seemed an
excellent choice in his hazed mind.
Unlike
their ride from Scot to London expecting to find Colonel Fitzwilliam dead while
holding the shreds of their marriage, this time he took action and grabbed her
wrists to bring his wife to his lap. Luckily the roads were in pitiable state
or else the coachmen and scouts could have noticed the lovers’ enthusiastic
patching of old bruises.
Almost a
year later, after a very exasperating confinement, their family grew
significantly. The Darcy twin boys received their grandpapas’ names and
Elizabeth prayed for a way to prevent her husband’s seeds to grow inside her
again, because the sowing never stopped.
The end
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M.
update:
a revised & extended version of this story will be available on Kindle Unlimited from Jan 25th, 17.
’ de Ganymédes
José. Já tinha chorado e rido e brincado com 
e outros tantos
indicados pelas queridas professoras de Português, mas foi no início da
adolescência que me foram abertas as portas para esse mundo infinito. Depois, todos os volumes da biblioteca que meu pai
mantinha em casa ganharam novos ares: 
, 
, 
... Pode-se dizer que foi nas 
e a fome de ler toda sua obra, as indicações dos
professores de 
e 
, 
, 
e 
,
os livros conceituais da época de 
e mais tarde da Faculdade
de 
e de repente eu me encontrei nos romances. 
,
(ah, os vampiros...), heroínas espirituosas e no meio disso: 
. Li sobre o fenômeno na Veja, comprei o primeiro volume para ter base de
crítica e quatro anos depois estava na fila de pré-venda da Amazon US rezando
para o Correio entregar logo.
, fui imune ao seu charme até colocar as mãos em 
. Tão abruptamente quanto aos 11 anos
com o romance adolescente passado nas 
à primeira linha. Arfei e arregalei os
olhos quando ela foi 
, mordi o lábio contendo o 
quando se
reencontram... Estava eu enfeitiçada pela estória quase dois séculos depois que
a Jovem Austen escreveu, reconhecendo ali tantas heroínas e heróis que já tinha
lido antes, deixando minha imaginação ir longe (até demais).
