Musical post (very) special edition

hey there,
I've been away because there are too many things going on in my life, stuff too big for me to deal with.
The idea is to live one minute at a time, try to keep my shit together and don't overthink.
Hard thing to do. Very. Very hard.
Coincidentally I found this sticker I posted on my Facebook fan page ages ago... It fits perfectly.

And then, my Ipod greets me with this little pearl of sweet music while I run trying hard to hold in my tears. Mornings are particularly hard... If you have faced a moment of impending loss in the family, you may know the fear I'm dealing with... *sniffing now*

Let me down easy

Sheppard

Ohhhhhh

Let me down easy, let me down easy, woah, before you go

Ohh, let me down easy, let me down easy, woah, before you go

Ba ba ba ba-da da ba ba ba [x4]

Night and day I've been doin' the math

To calculate where we wandered off track

But I know that this love was never easy

But something's faded inside of your heart

So you're crusadin' to tear us apart

It's clear now, I know you're gonna leave me

So disappear now, I won't get in your way

Ohh, let me down easy, let me down easy, woah, before you go [x2]

Well how do I begin to convince you to love me

When you're a star in the sky up above me

And I'm too far down below

Your heavy heart has taken its toll

You've lost all the magic inside of your soul

So sell me a lie before you hit the road

Ohh, let me down easy, let me down easy, woah, before you go [x2]

Woah Yeah!

Cause I know you'd rather run than stay and try

(Ba ba ba ba-da da ba ba ba)

Cause I know it's that much easier to say good bye

(Ba ba ba ba-da da ba ba ba)

Yes I know, so if you've made your mind

Take what you want and get out of my life

But can you do this one last thing?

Leave me with my pride

Ohh, let me down easy, let me down easy, woah, before you go [x2]

Night and day I've been doin' the math

(Ohh)

To calculate where we wandered off track

(Let me down easy)

But I know, this love was never easy

(Let me down easy, woah, before you go)

Something's fading inside of your heart

(Ohh)

So you're crusading to tear us apart

(Let me down easy)

It's clear now, I know you're gonna leave me

(Let me down easy)

So disappear now, I won't get in your way

(Woah, before you go)

While not all the lyric fits, the main sense is there...

At least the editing is as lovely as the song.

It's all in God's wise hands.

Just one more try

So, I've said it soon enough... 2016 can't stop being horrible.
I'm terrified to write this even...

George Michael

no, 2016, no!

I have so much to say about my favorite artist ever that I seem to be unable to find words. How ironic.

His song was love at first chord for me, I fell in love with his work without even seeing his wavy blond hair and funny smile. Always thought it funny, how he smiled (professional smiles, maybe) with his upper teeth perfectly aligned with his lower as if preparing a bite. I'm smiling here but if I don't concentrate, a few tears my escape me - and I think: why would I be so sad for a person I didn't actually know?

I know the impression his work made in my life, my growing musical taste, the parties and dreams rocked by his voice. The sole concert I watched, oh dear... I remember singing in screams, loving every little second. 

When a friend told me about his passing yesterday, I felt overwhelming sadness and then guilt for not being more tuned to what he was up to. But do fans have to like everything a favorite artist produces? I'm not talking about his private life, who he loved and how or where. In my second book he is there in a big live concert and one of the characters say (not about him, take notice): 'Who you fuck don't determine who you are.' I doesn't. George Michael never stopped being the oh-so-cool-and-talented-George-Michael to me.

My thoughts on his passing were: I'll write him a mashup! My humble talent as writer united with his magic... But the only song that comes to my mind is 'One more try' that could even fit the WIP I'm dealing now, Snow White version for my Portuguese series of modern fairy tales but I'm so sad... Bianca and Caê don't deserve such gloominess.

So I'll give my sorrow a few days and my hommage to his talent will come, hopefully from Fastlove. 
For now, I can only say I'm devasted.

#RIPGeorgeMichael 💔 pic.twitter.com/L7ZsknPqBw

— Moira Bianchi (@moirabianchiaut) December 26, 2016

Because there ain´t no joy

for a Brazilian girl

whose teacher her taught her goodbye

Goodbye

Goodbye